Well, time to sit and take a breath. It's been an up and down week. In the extremes. Starting the week by losing a friend to suicide. Ending it by celebrating my little one's second birthday. The circle of life. I must admit it has me feeling a little dark, more than a little thoughtful and contemplating the 'what's it all about?' questions.
I haven't been reading a lot online either as it all seems a little frivolous. I've been soaking up precious moments with my little ones.
The friend's loss is sad. Sad for us that we won't see him again. Tragic that the end was so, well, tragic and devastating for those close to him. Sad that someone you know was so low that they couldn't see their way out and took such drastic action. It's hard to write about, as I don't want to cheapen their life and their pain to a few sentences focusing on me. Especially as they haven't been a focus in my life for quite a while.
At the other end of the scale, today I got to see my daughter so joyful and so loved by so many. I was so much more appreciative of what I have. What I have been blessed with. How lucky I am.
I have recently been focusing a lot on being in the moment. I have learnt an important lesson this week, focus on the moment but remember that this moment will pass.
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I also hate to cheapen your friends life with a frivolous comment but...how hard it must be for those left behind to mourn their passing.
ReplyDeleteI lost a friend in a similar way last year so I can understand. Trying to articulate, or write, how it feels and the impact it has is close to impossible. I've started a number of blog posts on it and trashed them all because nothing seems to work.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing.
I am so sorry for your loss. Tragic events like that have a way of putting things in perspective.
ReplyDeleteLosing someone at a young age always makes you stop and think - but when it's to something as tragic as suicide it's hard to stop thinking.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to your gorgeous girl and hugs to you xx