Each time I have a new baby, I feel trapped in a land of limbo. Stuck in the baby bubble, where it's so easy to feed and stare at your bub and let the rest of the world go to hell. At the same time, longing to get out and amongst it again
Each time I feel a little isolated, like the world is moving forward and I'm not sure how to get on board too. This time I know it will just take a little time before I swept up in it all again. Time for me to get used to being this child's mama. For him to get used to being in the world.
Each time, I feel like I'm watching the world from behind a glass wall. I miss my husband and my other kids. My friends. Even though they're right here. I don't quite understanding why I feel that way.
It's a time where days have no start and no end. No day and no night. It's just feed, burb, settle. Feed, burp, settle. Stuff everything else - life, eating, bathing, sleeping - into the snatches in between.
At the same time, this will soon be a memory. The days will become longer, nights shorter. Life will swallow us up again
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Joining you there soon Corinne. You're right though, it feels like an eternity but in truth goes by so fast ( I have clomping teenagers roaming around here).
ReplyDeleteCorinne, you've done it again! So eloquently described that new Mama feeling. This is exactly how I have felt after both of my babies arrived. No matter how well I prepared myself second time around, I still felt the same way. The way you have conveyed in this post.
ReplyDeleteIt's comforting to know other Mama's feel that sense of detachment too and although you're in the middle of it right now, it's good to know you won't be for too much longer :o) xo
Hmmmm. I (mistakenly, it seems) thought that would just be the first time!!
ReplyDeletePerfectly described, Corinne.
By the way, out here in the big, wide world - we're not at war and haven't had any major natural diaster of late - just in case you were wondering!
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You articulate this so well - I too recall that feeling of standing at my sliding door which looked out over to the busy Sydney pathway and wondered why everyone seemed in such a hurry? Where had they been, where did they have to go? And most importantly, did they get any sleep last night?? ;)
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